Sometimes I find myself going through my camera roll and feeling shocked at how big you’ve grown. Every day that passes, you look more like a growing boy and less and less like my baby. Sometimes I catch myself imagining you getting older, going to school, graduating high school, leaving for college, and my heart just… aches. I just don’t want you to leave. I can’t even understand how I could love a tiny being so much. You’ve given me so much life, my sweet pea. So, so much life. I’m focusing on the present and relishing every teeny tiny moment, but I can’t help but think about the future. It’s in my nature.
Memories from the past few months…
In the car, when you like the song, you dance with your feet. It’s pretty cute. You’re also starting to sing some lyrics to radio songs as well as from your favorite shows!
You love animals. You tell Jesse he’s “fluffly” and point at animals all of the time. Birds in flight really amaze you. You’re also learning a lot about animals through Paw Patrol by pointing at elephants and rabbits and other animals in the show.
When daddy comes home, you now say “hello, daddy!” You also like to say “I’m sorry, mommy” when I catch you doing something bad and “awesome, mommy” when you’re happy. You also say “thank you” and “you’re welcome” now. Just recently, you started saying “pretty please!” when you really want something (ie chocolate). I’m guessing you learned that one from day care.
I can’t listen to Bruno Mars’ 24k Magic anymore because you make us play it in the car alllllllllllllll the time by saying “carat! carat!” One time, we listened to it 6 times on the way to day care.
Some days you literally will lie in bed in the morning waiting for us to wake up. One time, my alarm for work went off and you instantly yelled “mommy!” I have no idea how long you were awake before that, but I appreciate your kindness in waiting.
You adore babies and anyone that seems younger than you. You’ve leaned in to gently kiss several of our friends’ babies and have leaned in for hugs with other little ones as well. You are a growing sweetheart.
When your naps are long enough, you wake up and say “hello!” When they’re not long enough, you cry.
You looooove Target. I don’t know how or why, but it was one of your earliest words and call out for it every time you see the logo.
When you pretend to cook, you say “cookin it.” For a while, I thought you were saying “coconut.”
You’re starting toddler tantrums now, although I have to say they’re not downright scary. You just cry/whine when you don’t get what you want. The most amusing thing lately is that when we don’t give you attention right away, you’ll sit down and say “I faaaaallllll.” You clearly didn’t fall, sweetie, but I think you realized that I always rush to you when you hurt yourself, so this is your way to get me running to you. Smartie pants.
You suddenly love chocolate, and I kind of love it and I kind of hate it because I’m THAT mom.
After a little over a month at day care, you had your first day of not crying when I dropped you off. We said our “see you laters” and you looked a little sad, but you knew it was time to go play with your friends. You are growing so fast. I’m going to miss your cries when we go there, and you just run off to play.
In a month you actually started saying the teacher’s name as well as some friends. You know you have day care on the days that I change you in the mornings, and it’s pretty sweet.
When you give a kiss, you say “muaaaaaaaaah!”