Baby D has been really fussy the past few days. It can get really exhausting trying to figure out what he needs sometimes, but then I have moments like last night. He was being Mr. Fussypants when I buried my face in his and told him softly that I love him. He stopped crying. Is that crazy? Is that all he wanted to hear?
I love this little guy so much it’s impossible to put it into words. I’m so excited to see him grow and for me to teach him new things and show him the world.
I read this article the other day, and I found myself crying quietly to myself because it’s exactly what I’ve been thinking when I have quiet time with my little guy. When I mess with his hair, massage his arms, and tickle his little feet, I have a bad habit of thinking “I’m going to miss this so much.” Of course, I quickly remind myself to live in the moment, but I’ve already seen him change so much in the past 4 weeks that I can’t help but believe that these precious moments are going to fly by so fast.
Here is the article: You Won’t Remember, But I Will
“You won’t remember the way my heart broke and grew a little bigger each time you passed a milestone, watching the sand fall through the hourglass while feeling overjoyed witnessing you expand and grow.”
Every word rings true, but that part right there is something I feel every day. I notice every little change each day, and although I get a little sad, I’m also overjoyed. He growing – healthy and strong. Obviously, his changes aren’t major to anyone else, but I guess as a mother, they’re huge for me. Another thing that the article mentions is that her child won’t remember any of the memories being made, but that she will remember. That’s what’s most important – knowing that she always put her best foot forward.
A new change – his cries have changed as of yesterday. It almost seems like he’s conversing as he understands more of how we work. He gets more or less high-pitched or screams when we do something wrong or quiets down when we do something right. It’s less of the same constant cry, almost like his cries are evolving. He’s also been making a lot more baby noises too – like he tries to talk while he’s eating. What a silly boy!
Anyhow, I’m going to enjoy some more sweet moments with this guy. I don’t want to miss a milestone. They’re all a huge deal for this first time mommy.